• We’re halfway through my little project, and y’all, my brain is tired. June ended weird; I had a monumentally earth-shifting experience while someone in the family was actively passing away. It was so so odd being suspended in a beautiful bubble delirious on hope while everything else around me caught fire and fell apart. To say the month has been extreme is putting it mildly.

    When I started this project, it was to push myself outside of my comfort zone and see if I could stick to it for the entire month after not writing consistently for over a decade. So far, so good! It’s astonishing how difficult it is to condense your thoughts and feelings into a pre-existing structure. I could benefit from a thesaurus but my entire practice is still forming itself; I have never taken my writing this seriously before and it is both exhilarating and frustrating as hell.

    Halfway, exhausted 
    Trust the ebb and flow, my dear
    It is almost time
  • i won't think that kissing your lips
    will be like drinking from the fountain of youth
    because i'll be too nervous to even remember how to use my lips
    or my tongue
    and i won't know what to do with my hands
    should i put them on your arms?
    or on your shoulders?
    or at your waist?
    and what about opening my mouth?
    when should i do that?
    how much tongue is too much tongue?
    does my breath stink?
    do i have food stuck in my teeth?
    how's my technique?
    how's yours?
    oh my god, what if you're a bad kisser?
    after all this anticipation and daydreaming
    what if you sweep me into your arms and look into my eyes
    and say all the right words
    and then kiss me with basset hound tongue?
    
    -rjm
    2008